So... I love my daughter, Alexis, more than anything in the world. Next, I suppose, would be my husband, Armando! BUT!! Adjusting to having a newborn is definately hard for me to do! I always thought it would be just the easiest thing, I have taken care of many small children but what I didn't realize was that taking care of my nieces and taking care of MY daughter is different! I spent almost the ENTIRE night last night being awake with her while she screamed... it was very frusterating. Most of the time I wanted to cry too, in the past week I have had less sleep than when I was a wild partying teenager and only slept a couple hours each night! Exhaustion is not even a good enough word to describe it. But never-the-less I love her and she is just the cutest little girl I have ever seen. No matter how much she screams because she has the worst gas ever, I still love her!
Now to complain about the state of Kansas! I need to be away from here, it is ridiculous. There is nothing to do and I dislike it here very much. I am hoping that the Air Force fixes everything of my husband's that they have messed up and we can request a move. Tampa, Florida is where I am shooting for. My mom is down there and the beach is down there. Plus right now it is like 2 degrees here with ice everywhere, in Tampa is it not 2 degrees and there is sand everywhere! My mom is hoping for that to happen also because while she is down there in the Winter she would like to be able to see her granddaughter, I would like that too. The only bad part is that my dad is down there with her in the Winter and it would make me sad to see him reject his grandchild because her dad is Panamanian. But I suppose life goes on!
I am going to stop complaining for now, I am sure there will be more later! :)
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ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry every thing seems so hard right now. Believe me, I cried many nights while getting up with Jason. I didn't know how I could ever do it alone. But, you get used to being tired, you get used to having a baby that needs you all day, everyday.
Having a baby yourself is A LOT different from watching someone else's kid. But, it's more rewarding, too! :D
Yes, move to Florida, I'd love to come visit there!