Friday, January 30, 2009

Maybe I am wrong...

So yesterday when my husband came home from work he was really tired. The night before was a little rough because he actually slept in the bedroom and Alexis screamed all night so he didnt get much sleep. Then at like 5am the Wing Commander decided it would be fun to have a recall and he had to go into work. So, him being tired is understandable. So he sat down on the couch and fell asleep, he told me to wake him up at 6pm, so I did. I told him it was 6 and I asked him if he wanted to take Alexis; he said no. So I was like oh ok, and walked away. He must have felt guilty because he was like I will take her, I am just tired. I was like no its ok, you are tired get some rest. But inside I was to my boiling point. So I just stay at home all day and take care of the baby... I try to do school work but by the time I am in the middle of it she starts crying, I attempt to clean while she is napping but it seems like I never get anything clean! I am up all night and all day with her and usually I dont get to sleep until like midnight, get up about 3 times during the night and then we wake up all early because she doesnt want to be in bed anymore! So yea, he goes to work but is what I do not considered work of some kind? Yea I don't wake up everyday and put on a uniform anymore but I am lucky if I have the energy to change my clothes or the time. I never believed people when they said you will start weighing what's more important, I thought I would be able to get everything done! It just upsets me that he only wants to give me a break on the weekends... all I want is enough time to take a relaxing bath without feeling rushed.

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry things are so hectic. It'll get better, I promise! Sorry I'm not closer, I'd come help you out, but Kansas is far away! That's one down side of living away from family!

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